- it seems that we have picked the most popular day to get married...two of my friends (one sorority sister & one "fraternity brother") have also picked that day. i am just a little worried because let's face it, i never get picked first...i'm always the one supporting her friends and then getting forgotten or left behind. i don't mind being in the background and i don't mind doing things without recognition (i'm not doing them for attention in the first place) but on my wedding day, i would like to attract a little attention and feel special and important.
*this does not apply to all of my friends...just some (a majority in school)* - i am having a friend issue & i am really upset about it. it's more a lack of information than a fight that is getting me bothered...i just feel unimportant and abandoned... *sigh*
- blake is not here... i love him and i can't wait for us to be married... it will be so nice when we get to come home to eachother and not have to be apart anymore! don't get me wrong, i LOVE being at home with mom and pop, i'm going to miss them dreadfully when i move out, it just doesn't seem right when blake's not here.
- i feel far away from everyone. i have best friends in b'ham, nashville, california... besides blake, nobody in huntsville! (and as i've already mentioned, he's not here) it's a little lonely...
- i'm still feeling overwhelmed with school, wedding, life, and weight loss.
i'm not a weepy, girly person...but today, it seems to be all i can do not to cry! i need a hug, a good glass of wine, and a great movie... guess i'll settle for a teddy bear (who has stuck with me through thick and thin), a "squishy" pillow, and some mama's semi-sweet tea...
off to work in the mornin!
goodnight for now...
2 comments:
Aw! Call me any time! And don't worry, you're wedding is going to be fabulous, all the important people will be there, and they won't be able to take their eyes off you, the beautiful bride! (Especially Blake!) And, I know how you feel, having friends, but not any in your city. It'll take some time, but don't worry, you'll make more friends in the area. That's just who you are! Also, I got a little "bluesy" while waiting to get married, too. You want to get married and hate not being around *him*. But, it all ended happily ever after for me, and will for you too!
Love,
Moondoggy
Just a chin up from your Mr. T!
While we are indeed apart in distance, you are very close to our hearts and we pray for you constantly. We love you!
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